Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Stalled Already.

Sorry I haven't been around much. The kids are home and I've been busy bossing them around. That's how they see it anyway.

I've also been just a bit too bummed to get online. I've stalled at 28 lbs lost. Already. I know it's because of the tear in my abdomen, since I can't exercise, but it's so frustrating. I'm only getting MAYBE 500 calories a day. If I were able to move and DO stuff I'd be able to kick my metabolism into gear. Instead my body is doing what it's always done when I diet. It notices that I'm not getting sufficient calories and it shuts down. Instead of feeding on the fat like it should it just hibernates & stores what it's got.

The tear isn't showing any sign of healing, either. I have to hold my stomach just right when I use my abdomen for anything, or it feels like it's tearing again. I've thought about going to my primary care doc about it, but there's really nothing she can do either. I have to take Lortab at night to be able to sleep, and still wake up in pain in the mornings.

This is really the first time I've questioned what it is that I've done to my body, and why. The thing is, this stall isn't coming from the WLS, it's because of something that just happened, completely unrelated. It sucks.

Sorry, just cranky and feeling sorry for myself. And while normally I'd bake up something yummy and drown my sorrows in it...yeah, can't do that. I have to find a new way to deal.

Good news...I'm on the tightest hook setting on my bra, and a C cup finally fits perfectly. The D cups are way too big, AND Lame Giant is having a Cacique sale. Yee-haw doggie!


Amy said...

I am sorry to hear that nothing is going your way right now. I just threw up. Does that make you feel any better? lol