I can lean over to tie my shoes. And the tie is on top, not the side, of the shoe.
I can go hard on the elliptical for more than two miles and barely break a sweat.
I can lean over and hold my ankles, and my boobs touch my knees. Not because of gravity, either!
I can do the dishes without incredible back pain. Just don't tell my daughter!
I can last 400 miles on the back of my husband's motorcycle.
I can wear boots and not have to worry about getting a size bigger to fit my calves.
I can jump onto my husband and have him hold me and not worry about hurting him.
I can get into my van with the door barely opened (thanks to the person that parked way too close to me) and not have to squeeze in.
I can say hello to my neighbor and have her give me a "who the hell are you?!" look because she doesn't recognize me.
I can catch my 10 year old when she runs away from me.
I can work in my garden without back pain.
I can keep up with my husband when we're walking somewhere.
I can look in the mirror and believe that I am smaller than the average American woman. (Wow, that sounds arrogant!)
I can have a few bites of chocolate or ice cream and be able to push them away before I eat so much that I get sick.
I can spend time with family in a food centered situation and realize that it's not about the food, it's about the family.
I can do naughty things with my husband that he says are none of your business!!!
I can dance and Zumba my cares away and not feel like a cow tripping around about to land on somebody.
I can shop in the "regular" misses section. Still automatically going to the plus section, but then I realize I'm in the wrong place!
I can shop in "normal" stores! Gap! Eddie Bauer! Banana Republic! American Eagle! Victoria's Secret! (OK, so I haven't shopped at Vicky's yet, but I'll be hitting that next payday. I want perky boobs!)
I can sit in my van and not overflow the driver's seat.
I can sit in my jacuzzi bathtub and have four inches to spare on each side of me.
I can fit in the flapper Halloween costume that I wore the first Halloween that Brian and I were together, before I found out I was pregnant with Bethany. (Hm, might wear that this Halloween!)
I can wear high heels without pain. I can even walk through downtown in heels without killing myself. I can even DANCE in high heels.
I can stand face to face with my husband and kiss him, and not have to reach to do it.
I can cuddle with my husband and have his arms wrapped all the way around me, not just reaching.
I can mow the front yard without feeling like I'm going to fall over and die. I still break out in hives, but I don't fall over and die.
I can climb up to the top bunk on my girls' bed and not feel like I'm going to come crashing down on my 12 year old.
I can carry two heavy bags of groceries out to the van from the store and not drop them.
I can carry things in front of me, instead of having to prop them on my hip because my stomach is in the way.
I can cross my legs like a LADY.
I can stand with my arms hanging down to my sides, instead of sticking out like an ape. OK, they stick out a little bit, but that's because of my boobs.
I can look down and not have three chins.
I can tilt my head downward and not have two chins.
I can look at a picture of myself and see a difference.
I can be proud of what I've accomplished so far.
I can have faith in myself that I WILL lose the last 20 pounds.
I can have faith in myself that I will keep the weight off for the rest of my life.
Existing With Trauma
1 year ago
3 comments:
Wow Meg. I can see your amazing confidence and how inspiring you are to all of us! Keep up the amazing work, and congratulations!
This is such a great list. I might reread it a couple of times today and maybe it will get me back on track.
I am proud of you and your choices!
Great list - I am so happy for you!
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